idle

deep sighs into thick air

i forgot to —

worship

the boxes drawn in my planner are still —

empty

i forgot the dishes last night my sink might —

overflow

belabored breaths into nothingness

i forgot to —

care

nothing’s there i’m on —

empty

the devil’s mind is an idle playground

or however that goes

i just know it goes

and goes

and goes

like a carousel in a —

playground

idol in a 

playground

monkey bars and slides in a 

playground

bars in a —

playground

i want to sleep

no sighs into stuffy air

just deep breaths

i want to —

sleep

while on my phone because i can’t stop

scrolling

can’t

stop

scrolling

and the sink has over —

flowed

it’s flooding and my pages are still —

empty

my eyes can barely open but i’m not —

sleep

i should

sleep

it’s been two months since i washed my shirt because i’ve been —

sleep

but my eyes can’t close

heavy bags under eyes that can’t close

a devils’ merry-go-round is an idle fantasy

or however that goes

it still goes

the idol goes

and the morning —

goes

and i still need to —

worship